Stand and Start to Quiver This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine.

I think the scariest fears are the ones that can happen everyday. Fear of spiders and heights are no fun, and I pity anyonewho has a fear of clowns, although we don't usually face thosefears every day. My biggest fear is of failure.

It allstarted when I was in elementary school. I had troublelearning as fast as other kids; I never understood as well oras fast. I never knew what the teacher was talking about and Ihad trouble reading. When I didn't study, I failed. Even whenI tried studying really hard, I still failed. Soon I gave uptrying. In third grade my teacher noticed and had me tested.Afterwards my teacher talked to my parents who explained to methat I had dyslexia. I was eight, and had no clue whatdyslexia was. All I knew was that three times a week I had toleave class to work with a tutor. I didn't like school toomuch before this and after I started seeing the tutor, I beganto hate it. Before, I could stay silent in class if there wasa question I didn't know the answer to. Now I had to answerevery question: I could no longer be a wallflower letting theother kids answer question after question.

Thenone day I had a breakthrough on a spelling test I had studiedfor all week. Suddenly, all the answers started coming to me;I used techniques my tutor had taught me and they worked.After that test I started to feel more confident and soondidn't need a tutor. Yet, even today, there are times when Ifeel like I don't belong. I fear one day I will go to classand all the other kids will be smarter than me and I'll againbecome that scared third-grader who doesn't want to raise hishand. That's my biggest fear.

This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. This piece has been published in Teen Ink’s monthly print magazine.

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Jan. 9 at 5:31 am
i love this so much!
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