I still remember the scent of your cigarettes

I remember the birthmark on your hip

(your boyfriend never noticed it despite the number of times he saw you naked)

(you had never noticed it either until I showed you)

(I’ve never seen you naked)

I remember the stories you told me about your mother

I could never forget what you looked like

When I rolled over in the middle of the night

Unable to sleep because of the heat

(we slept in your tent all summer)

(but it wasn’t yours- you borrowed it)

And my eyes settled on your face

I stared at you because you were asleep

You would never find out

(I swear to god you were the most beautiful thing I had ever seen)

(You still are)

(But beautiful doesn’t do you justice)

I remember how we stayed up til six in the morning

We watched movies

We talked a lot

(I got a migraine the next morning)

(Afternoon? We didn’t wake up til four)

(I threw up in your bathroom)

I laid down on your bed and you wrapped your arm around me

You had never seen me in pain

You told me I was scaring you

(I didn’t want to move)

(You had never put your arm around me like this)

(No one had)

I left an hour later

I missed the smell of your cigarettes

(even though they gave me a headache)

(maybe you would put your arm around me again)

I went to your house again after that

It was the best summer of my life

(we stopped talking once school started)

(the rain ruined your tent)

(but it wasn’t yours- you borrowed it).