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An Open Letter to My Demons

April 1, 2016
By KawaiiCooper DIAMOND, Winter Garden, Florida
KawaiiCooper DIAMOND, Winter Garden, Florida
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Favorite Quote:
"I'm well acquainted with villains that live in my head."


To my dad:
You helped
Bring me
Into this
World,
But you
Made sure
I knew
I wasn’t
Welcome.

You taught
Me that
There’s
No better
Acceptance
Than
Self-acceptance.

To Chloe:
You and I
Were best
Friends.

I felt
Comfortable
Around you,
And I wanted
You to know.

In turn,
You told
The whole
School...

… And they
Listened.

You taught
Me to be
Cautious
With who
I trust my
Heart
To.

To Jasmine:
The sickeningly
Sweet
Smell of
Your hair
Product
And the
Vicious smile
On your face
Are both
Forever
Engrained in
My mind.

You told me
To run to
My little
Knife
While Chloe
Smiled
Approvingly
Behind you.

The twisted
Smirk I
Saw on
Your face
Behind misty
Eyes
As you
Relished
The fact
That I
Was
In tears
Haunts me
To this day.

You taught
Me not to
Listen to
What people
Say; they
Don’t matter.

To Adil:
You kept
Me awake
At night,
Your death
Threats
Swimming
Through
My mind.

You taught
Me to
Relax,
Nothing is
Worth losing
Sleep over.

To Sophia:
For being
There for
Me
When I was
Dangerously
Close to
Sobbing.

For abandoning
Me when
Kennedy
Informed you
That being my
Friend
Wasn’t cool.

You taught
Me to
Stand on
My own
Two legs
And face
Challenges
Head-on,
Because
No one
Else
Will do it
For
Me.

To Rocio:
You consoled
Me when
Sophia dumped
Me.

I was
Crying
On the
Other side
Of the
Phone,
And the last
Text I
Ever received
From you
Promised me
You’d never
Ditch me.

You taught
Me that
People lie,
And there’s
Nothing you
Can do
About it.

To myself:
You’ve failed
In the past.

You’re weak.

You’re scared
And nervous
And hollow.

So hollow
Inside.

You fill
It with
Anger,
Hate,
Anything
To fill
The void.

But you’ll
Never be
Full.

You’re traumatized,
Scarred,
Grasping
For something
You won’t
Let yourself
Have.

You taught
Yourself
That life
Will beat
You down
To the ground,
But that’s nothing
Compared
To the
Damage you
Can do
On your
Own.

The real danger
Is you
And you
Know it.
So stand
Proud and smile,
Because
You got up
More times
Than anyone
Should have
To count,
And everytime
You get back
On your
Knees,
You find
Another reason
To keep
Living.

Hold onto
Those,
Because we
Both know
You’ll need
Them.



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