Tonight I'm going to be deep inside my own thoughts,
my weary soul is so scared and hurt,
it feels like that every time I love, my life falls through the cracks,
I ruin all that I touch, it turns into dirt.
Why is my mind, the way it is?
I try to hold back, but then I snap,
and I turn into what I do not want to become,
I'm afraid of the man I am,
who cant keep himself in check.
I talk to you and my life is in bliss the hurt is held back by a dam,
I blink and the whole thing turns into a wreck,
Boom.
There it goes again my inner demons unleashing themselves and I get burnt,
the scares I fear will never go away inside this tortured brain,
locked inside and the key thrown away,
not a minute passes when I don't think about your smile,
yet I still hurt you, that smile I did defile,
How could I do that to the one I love?
When your as sweet and innocent as a white dove,
I'm going to be deep inside my own thoughts tonight,
I hope one day I will be able to put things right...