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My mind, confused

March 31, 2014
By FutureWriter101 PLATINUM, Gabarone, Other
FutureWriter101 PLATINUM, Gabarone, Other
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Happiness can be found even in the most darkest of times, if only one remembers to turn on the lights


My mind says no but my heart says yes
Is an old timely excuse, I must confess
But I now finally understand why one uses this
To explain their perfidy while they remain in bliss
I try by all means, to remain faithful to one
But another comes along and just makes the matter that more fun
She came in, her intentions at first I did not know
My life already unstable, my mind began to flow
The way she entered, graceful with one thought in her mind this I knew
I could tell she was a virgin and at this my mind flew
But she was willing to willing….to be caught within my embrace
And I could not resist the temptation as I saw - longing written on her face
Although she was only but a child of sixteen and I was much older
Her maturity drew me near and things, were far less colder
I resisted for as long as I possibly could
But she persisted and there I stood
Helpless in her man eater ways
And I suddenly “forgot” what my wife would say
If she ever saw me in the hands of another
If she ever saw me caught beneath the covers
I knew she would be distraught, saddened by my act
For thus far she has remained flawless, faithful within our pact
But still I allowed my unforgiveable desires to grow stronger
I ignored all moral sense and could resist, no longer
We stayed together that night
And she was indeed quite a sight
For a virgin I was impressed and questioned that innocence I assumed she once had
But I brushed the thought, for the feeling I shared for her and with her was not bad
I promised myself that I would not let myself go astray yet again
But her scent now lingers, in my sheets, forever stained
I held her close, as she slumbered and was thankful that my wife was not within my domain
And was admittedly fearful for her pain
If she ever knew that I was this way
The same way I was with her to another on this day
Her heart would break as this truth continuously swam within my thoughts
She must never know but I did not know how to avoid being caught
However despite my worry, I woke up the next morning…… as if she had not been with me
That is when my conscious finally fell with a thud as I wondered how I would be free
I then heard someone enter through my door
Her voice called as my stomach fell with my conscious to the floor
I braced myself knowing what I must now say
My mind grew darker as she made her way
As I saw her face, smiling and the ignorance blissful in her eyes
I could not bring myself to let her know of the burden hidden beneath my disguise
I will relieve myself of this guilt, this act of duplicity later on in life
But for now I will enjoy my time with her and be thankful that she is still my wife



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