I’ve hated you, abused your name,
And blamed you for everything.
So many times I’ve been betrayed,
That I ponder how long you’ll stay.
I still find it hard to believe,
You could ever want someone like me.
But now I know you word is true,
Each day I’m learning to trust in you.

Too often you’re given human qualities,
This increases my uncertainties.
Please forgive me I don’t me to doubt,
I’m still searching what you’re about.
I’m not ashamed to claim him,
He freed me from my sin.
When it felt like no one else did care,
I know he was always there…

I never knew the magnitude of love,
Until I turned to Christ above
I felt him near my bedside,
The night I contemplated suicide
He held me in his arms the day,
My grandpa had to pass away.
In the palms of his hands,
He caught my tears
As I threw away precious years.

I’m no perfect Christian teen
If you know what I mean
I do my best to live for god each day
Still I stumble fall and lose my way,
That’s why each night I willingly,
Beg god for his unending mercy.