its amazing how when i see you i get so excited that its hard to breathe. but you calm me right back down to where i need you with me.need.but its an amazing kind of need.because we all know that we need vegetables but does that mean that we want them.but the way i need you is that i want you so bad so desperately so intensely that i mentally and physically need you.its ridiculous.its not even feasible.i know this isn't good for me.this depending on you for every single moment. but i do.i need you there because my love for you forced me to depend on you.i didn't choose to.but i wanted it.i wanted it my whole life and with my whole being.i wanted it so much that i could function without it.i didnt' know that i had been living so wrong this whole time.and the thing i needed to fix it was you.you.and now i have it.for good.
its amazing to me.
December 13, 2009