Schöner Lügner

April 12, 2009
By dramakat GOLD, Newton, Massachusetts
dramakat GOLD, Newton, Massachusetts
18 articles 1 photo 23 comments

Schöner Lügner—Fiction
(Beautiful Liar)

I am a liar. Even on my deathbed as they fuss over me. They ask me if I need anything, if they can make me more comfortable. I tell them I’m fine. I lie. Lies are beautiful. They are like flowers. From the seed, you know not what they’ll become; they seem innocent and small. Over time, they begin to sprout along with weeds, trailed by the inevitable—a tangled indiscernible mess. You don’t want to reach for the weed, but pull the flower. Then you are left with messy dandelions that, when the wind is right, will release their seeds—their secrets. As a child, you are fed herbicide by your parents, taught to attack the weeds that grow around you. But what about those of us with no parents? The pathological bunch, constantly cast under society’s frowns, the ones whose parents died tragically. Most end up in prison, but the smart ones become like me: Beautiful Liars.

Every town has a secret. I am their suppressed secret. The man who draws them in, and suffocates them, confusing them, rewiring their brains with lies and letting them free with a new high—a skill I have spent my life sculpting and perfecting. At first a raging lunatic, I killed with my lies. I led people into my world, showed them the sights and took them places, eventually leaving them there—lost in my lies and their new world.

People are fascinating creatures. They give their trust away too easily and become quickly confused. They are naïve and desperate for relationships. With a child, a spouse, the fluffy squirrel who eats the birdseed, anyone they can claim knowing, makes them feel superior. They crave that falsified love, a hideous and deceiving façade.

Maybe I was born pathological, maybe it was a skill required and subconsciously honed. It’s too close to call. I watched my parents die of malnutrition during an economic crisis. I saw my mother become skeletal; her frame protruded through her ragged clothes. Her hair grayed prematurely along with the skin under her almost hollow eyes. Finally, my father could only prop up her head so she could eat what little food he could find her.
My father walked the streets all day, looking for scraps in higher income neighborhoods. A brave man, he ignored disdainful looks as he rummaged through their garbage cans. In an effort to protect their neighborhoods of the scavengers, one recommended the soup kitchen. My father stood in line for hours, smelling like the bitter fish that he scraped around in the garbage cans for, only to be told he could only take enough for himself. They didn’t care he needed to provide for a starving wife and son. My father selflessly made that trip nine times a day, determined to give us each three meals. Then six times a day, as one less person needed food. Soon I was making that trip three times a day, two less mouths to feed.

As the years went on, truth slipped further from my life. I lied to teachers, creating artful stories about my ancestors and life. I told my schoolmates I still had parents, but they were never seen because they let me do as I pleased. Lies like these sent me into an ecstasy that I craved all the time. I wanted to know that I could say something that people believed wholeheartedly; I wanted to know that I controlled their thoughts and altered the way their brains worked. With every sentence I spoke, the weeds rose around me. I dragged them in, as the weeds surrounding us caught at their feet, but they were too distracted to notice. By the time I had reached my halfway mark in school, my first garden of weeds was thriving.

When I was a late teenager, the schools were segregated, Jews and Germans. I was a German. My father had dark curls, but I took after my mother’s Aryan features; my ticket to life in the mists of the war to come.
As the war progressed, large men in shiny black boots visited our classrooms after school to escort the privileged few to afterschool lessons. These consisted of a series of commands and stories we would repeat back to the men, in our orderly formation. I excelled in these classes; I was a natural liar—even to myself.

When we were assessed through a brutal selection process on what we had learned, I ranked highest. The men in shiny boots were impressed and asked me to repeat my lines to larger and larger herds of their kind. By the end of the week, I was one of them. One pair of reflective shoes followed another. My jobs were simple at first: look out for the brown curls and yellow star; if you saw on—yell. As I grew in rank, so did the tasks. When I was twenty-two, I was sent to Bergen-Belsen to help unload the deliveries we received daily. I saw women crying and children screaming as they were shaved and tattooed. My solution was to lie—lie to the prisoners and to myself. My guilt soothed, their fear hushed.

I told the deliveries, the showers would relax their tight muscles. It was true, sickly and morbidly true. I believed myself, and many of them did too.
One day, I was encouraged to put on a mask and peer through the shafts of a communal shower house, to see the great work of our kind. That day, I almost passed out. Not from toxic fumes creeping into the purses of my old mask, but from my lies I saw scattered before me. My second garden was planted, and this time I was caught amongst the tangled weeds.

That night, I sat in the guard tower with my searchlight scanning over barbwire fences and shallow shacks. I saw an emaciated woman with her wiry son, scampering toward a hole in the waste-filled soil. I watched in curiosity, trying to decide whether to yell now or see how far the boney pair could make it. They reappeared on the other side of the fence almost ten minutes later. Stumbling over her feet, the woman guided the dirty boy, occasionally glancing over her shoulder. I could smell her acrid, sweaty fear.

“Halt!” a strong voice rang from behind me. At that moment, I knew it was time to create my own brand of herbicide—one to save the woman and her son, and one to save my soul.

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This article has 36 comments.

on Mar. 16 2012 at 6:41 am
i was very disappointed with this story as it was just boring in general

lucky luke said...
on Feb. 1 2012 at 9:01 am
Your story is great i liked the intro becausze it was detailed

antcur said...
on Feb. 1 2012 at 8:45 am
I liked your introduction because you used strong verbs and adjectives. I also liked your story because of the detail you used because I was able to do text to self and relate to what you were talking about.

Erin M said...
on Feb. 1 2012 at 8:44 am
The beginning of this blew me away....this is REALLY good!

LaurenT said...
on Feb. 1 2012 at 8:44 am
When I read your story I could visualize everything you described. The words you used to describe the events sucked me right in. You made it sound so real, like it actually happened.

on Aug. 31 2011 at 9:07 am
Free_One PLATINUM, ????, Ohio
40 articles 1 photo 773 comments

Favorite Quote:
"I am not invincible or unstoppable, but I stay strong because it is the only way to survive in this world."

please comment and post feedback on my new story adena, the delicate. When you do i will read and post comments on one of your stories. :)(:

on Jul. 18 2011 at 10:46 am
PaRaNoRmAl627 GOLD, Mountainside, New Jersey
15 articles 0 photos 297 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Do what you want. If it's something you'll regret in the morning, sleep late."

wow this is beautiful. it blows anything of mine away. amazing job and dont ever ever ever stop writingg

on Jul. 18 2011 at 8:21 am
Free_One PLATINUM, ????, Ohio
40 articles 1 photo 773 comments

Favorite Quote:
"I am not invincible or unstoppable, but I stay strong because it is the only way to survive in this world."

It was was AWESOME!!! great job! (Sorry for advrertizing) I just wrote two stories called nightstalker and the beast. If anyone could check them out and post some comments and feedback that would be great. Thanks! and keep writing everybody! :)(:

on Jun. 28 2011 at 11:54 pm
StrangeJade PLATINUM, Relative Obscurity, California
36 articles 17 photos 391 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Life is so beautiful that death has fallen in love with it." - Life of Pi

This is really well-written... have you read The Book Thief? For some reason this reminds me of that. Best story I've read today! :)

on Jan. 1 2011 at 2:49 pm
RainyWriter GOLD, Redmond, Washington
14 articles 0 photos 42 comments

Favorite Quote:
Only the smart, talented, amazing, and insane are remembered in history.

Loved it! Omnious (did I spell that right? oh well...) and dark, my cup of tea. I love the weeds analogy, so true and perfect for what happened during that time span. Gives me a little more inspiration to keep writing my own historical piece on WWII.

dramakat GOLD said...
on Nov. 20 2010 at 11:28 pm
dramakat GOLD, Newton, Massachusetts
18 articles 1 photo 23 comments
I couldn't find it. If you post a link, I'd love it read it. Thanks!

dramakat GOLD said...
on Nov. 20 2010 at 11:27 pm
dramakat GOLD, Newton, Massachusetts
18 articles 1 photo 23 comments
Thank you!

dramakat GOLD said...
on Nov. 20 2010 at 11:26 pm
dramakat GOLD, Newton, Massachusetts
18 articles 1 photo 23 comments
Thank you so much!

on Jul. 31 2010 at 4:27 pm
cmCampbell SILVER, Cedar Grove, New Jersey
8 articles 0 photos 29 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Every minute you spend angry is 60 seconds you lose of happiness!"

This is great! please check out my story, True Blood. It's historical fiction and real short! :)

on Jul. 31 2010 at 2:41 pm
singergurl12 GOLD, Jacksonville, Florida
15 articles 0 photos 191 comments

Favorite Quote:
Fairy tales are true, not because they tell us dragons exist, but because they tell us dragons can be beaten.

This is really great! I love your wording... It actually reminds me alot of my peice, "What About The Weeds?". I love it though!

on Jul. 31 2010 at 9:04 am
kielymarie SILVER, Sandy Hook, Connecticut
6 articles 0 photos 86 comments

Favorite Quote:
"When you do dance, I wish you a wave 'o the sea, that you might never do nothing but that." -William Shakespeare

This is absolutely wonderful. Awesome job!!

dramakat GOLD said...
on Jul. 18 2010 at 10:46 pm
dramakat GOLD, Newton, Massachusetts
18 articles 1 photo 23 comments
Thanks so much! x

on Jul. 18 2010 at 10:34 am
blueberrybird2_8 SILVER, Chiang Mai, Other
5 articles 0 photos 8 comments
Wonderful work! It deserves all 5 stars!

dramakat GOLD said...
on Jun. 17 2010 at 10:33 am
dramakat GOLD, Newton, Massachusetts
18 articles 1 photo 23 comments
Thank you so much! I truly appreciate that!

on Jun. 17 2010 at 10:14 am
hobbyhorse BRONZE, Abbeville, Louisiana
3 articles 0 photos 10 comments

Favorite Quote:
Live, Laugh,Love
Love me just for a bit,
I don't do sadness not even a little bit I just don't need it in my life...
I love your light
The world is perfect. It is only its inhabitants that need changing.

Love it!!! Beautiful job!!

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