Hi, I'm Sarah I'm going to my new school, I can't count how many schools I have

through fifteen years. Do you wanna know why I have to move a lot of schools? I'm

a weird people, I have blue hair, two different colors of my eyes, one black and one

white. I forgot, my body has a lot of black dots. And I'm a coward person, I always run

when someone tricks on me about that. Oh, I'm here, oh that's big, look so good, look

similar at every school that I tried before, hope the students are not.

- Go, don't scare, this school will be better- My mom always says that with me on the

first day when I go to school.

- Bye mom- I go to the office to check my class, because of me, my parents have to

move a lot of time, to change to another job, I feel bad about that but I'm too weak. I

walk down in the hallway to come to my first class. Have a lot of people, they are

looking at me, some are laughing. That's fine, I'm used to it. when I'm walking, I saw the

girl in front of me drop her water bottle. Should I give it to her? I did something like that

before he doesn't say some like "thanks" with me, instead of that he was screaming " oh

god, the monster girl touch it, if I drink this I will become a monster like her" and put that

water bottle in the trash can. That time I'm ten years old, and that hurt me so bad. I pick

up the water bottle and give it to the girl with the beautiful brown hair. Guess what? She

says " thank you" that is the sweet voice ever that I have been heard. That is the good

thing for the first day, right? Hopely that I can "live" in this school through my senior.

Until my geography teacher tells everyone that choose some groups to work with, that's

confusing, I never did that before, but have a blond hair girl ask me to join her group "

yes, of course", I work with her, Jinx, Clove. When I have lunch at school that is the

peaceful time ever, no one asks me something, no one jokes me. That's so cool till a girl

come and talk with me. She says she like my hair, like my eyes, it’s so cool,

etc. And ask how can I make it, it that hurt? I’m honest answer her question:” it’s not

hurt, that my natural, when I was born I have this on my body”. She turns her face from no

emotion to scary, I think that she will scream, but she stands up and walks like she runs.

So relieved, no one minds me when I have lunch anymore. Yes, I’m right, the next day,

the whole school know I’m a monster. My lunchtime, no, my school time is not peaceful

at all. Everyone looks at me laughing, joking, taunting, the action really bad. If I was

myself at the middle school I will go to the bathroom and cry. I blame everyone why they

treat me like that, I blame myself why am I look like a monster. When I was crying some

trash pour over my head, and have a girl with a sharp-tongued:” a monster should live

with trash”. And you know that, the day after I move to the new school. But now I don’t

want to hide anymore. I’m walking to my first class under the looking down of people,

and I see the girl that I was gave her the water bottle, she drinks water, she saw I’m

coming to her face turn scare and she look at her water bottle, I bet that she thinks that:”

Oh my god, she touch this water bottle, am I become a monster?”. After one second

she put her bottle to the trash can next to her. Um, that’s hurt. I come to the first class, I

meet Lisa in the hallway, the girl that invited me to her group, Lisa is really tall, she has

a blond long hair, she smiles at me, that’s a beautiful smile. She asks “ Are you ok? I

think your look is so beautiful, don’t mind about these people”. A little emotional, but

now I’m smarter than last time. Just last year, my junior time, I know the guy his name is

Nicky, that’s the cute name for his look, but the inside is not. He appease me like Lisa,

no, more than Lisa, he makes me have a feeling that when I beside him, I was so

peaceful and I talk all my secrets to him, all my emotion, who that I hate, etc, I tell him

all. And the next day when I’m waiting for him at lunchtime, so exciting to tell him some

stories that I had read online. He answers that by lead the group that I tell him that I

hate, about ten people, seven girls. They sit in front of me, some beside me, they mess

my lunch, pour something like s*** on my food, I heard Nicky said behind me:” I’m sorry,

but I have to do that with you my little monster” that’s a sweet voice, God bless you, give

you a beautiful voice but he gives you a bad heart. He holds my hair really tight and

pushes my face to that s***. I still remember he told me that:” Don’t blame me, blame

yourself, why you are so ugly, why are you so mean that three hundred students,

teachers in this school no one helped you”. Do you know that feel? Like you are on an

abyss, and someone gives your their hand, you took it, you are in the middle of that ready

to get out of that but they give your hand up, and you on the abyss again, it’s hurt than last

time you been in that hole a hundred time. So I try to not closer to Lisa I don’t want to get

that feeling again. Jinx and Clove they seem to want to kick me out of the group, they

don’t treat me like a monster, that’s good, but they treat me like a girl that did something

wrong with them, but I didn’t do any. I really hate what they look at me. Like that day,

Lisa is gone, and my teacher says that need five people each group, they just have two

and I ask that can I join them, you know what they say? They said:” Um, I don’t know

how many people in this group”. That’s stupid. If they hate me just tell me, don’t need to

do that. That’s uncomfortable. Sometimes I don’t know why I’m changing, right? I “live”

in this school a month with the glare of people. Maybe they are nice, didn’t do the bad

things with me. I’m sitting and have lunch, suddenly have a person sit in front of me. Oh

god, I just want to have a peacetime, I stand up and I saw him. He looks exactly same

like me. I stand still five seconds until he said:” Hey, can I have lunch with you?”. I’m not

strong like him, I don’t ask anyone to have lunch with me before, because I know they

don’t do that with me. And he just eat and talk, he talk too much like introduce himself,

his name is John. He is much lucky than me, he has friends, no one treat he like a

monster, I saw have a ten boys walk through my table and have nine of them high five

with him. I ask him:” why don’t you go play with your friend?”. He said that he want to

play with me, etc, something like that. Is that the second Nicky? But I don’t believe

anyone again. He come, have lunch with me everyday, he just talk the first day and all

the days after he just eat and doesn’t say anything. I'm so curious about him, why he

stay here, doesn't talk anything, just stay, eat, and go.

- Hey, why are you not saying anything?

- Finally, you are talking now, that's good- What? I frown look at his diamond face. Is he

waiting for me to talk first?

- Talk more, your face looks so uncomfortable, what's wrong- I want to tell him all the

things happened to me but no, I don't trust him yet. I need to be careful. He waits for two

or three minutes and he stands up, put his hand on my hair:" ok, talk more, open your

heart, don't be scared, everything will be alright" and he goes. I sit at my table and think,

is he joking me? But he same like me, don't have any reason that he is joking on me. I

went home and search up, have some people same like me on the world that maybe he

is not fake. The next day he still doesn't say anything. I will do an adventure, share

some my story, should I open my heart again? He seems like a good guy. That what my

“angel” mind says. My “evil” mind says that:" Do you remember Nicky? He and John are

one just different how they look. The boys are all mean". But this time I won't tell all my

stories:

- John.

- I'm here- I know… you are here boy.

- Did you have any troubles with your look?

- Of course, but It's not happened when I go to high school.

- Why?

- Because I accept it, I like myself, I proud of that, don't shame about that. If you want

people to accept you, you have to accept yourself, girl. Don't be sad about your look.

Now following me- He holds my hand and leads me to the gym room, they are playing

basketball:

- What do you need to play basketball?

- Tall. But I saw that girl not tall and have a little fatter than other girls, but she plays

really good- I know what he gonna says with me next.

- See, you can see it by yourself, you don't have to tall to play well at that game, you just

need to accept it and try to make fun with your body.

- So you study in this school four years? And didn't get any jokes?

- No, I did have. But I don't care and I have my real friends. If you want I can be your

friend- He looks at me, his eyes have no emotion but I can feel all the emotion he put in

this. And that day I have a real friend.

When I walking with John in the hallway, I saw a poster that:" share your story in front of

us". I look at John and he nodded his head, I know what he nodded about. Me and him

sign up, I don't know what he gonna says but I pretty sure that he knows what I'm gonna say.

We send our mail to the office and we both available to read it in front of all people in

this school. That day is coming I really afraid because this is the first time after my

elementary I talk in front of many people.

- Hey John, what will you say at tomorrow?

- You will know, just wait.

Today, Is the day that I reclaim my justice. I don't care it success or not, because I do it

with all my "power". Now is my turn, my palms are wet, no my body is wet. I go outside

under the surprise face of all the students in this room. I just remember last night when I

talking with John, that I was talking in front of people before, but when I say they were

screaming and running. His face like “that’s true you look like a monster”, but he said that

he will hear it. So I don't scared about these guys. I just say that to reassure myself, I hear

some taunt. I look at John, he is standing inside, he nodded his head. Let's do it fast:

- Hi, I'm Sarah, when I was born my body does not look like any of you guys, my eyes,

you guys can see, one is all black and one is all white, it's scary, right? and my body has

a lot of dots.  Sometimes I don't want to look at myself in the mirror because I scared of

myself. I never wear short clothes because I have to hide my dots. I had been move a

hundred school, that's true because I run away from myself. Now I'm not run anymore I

will look at myself in the mirror to see how beautiful I am, I will wear the short clothes to

show my cute dots, I will learn how to love myself, how to stronger, and how to accept

who am I- I saw a clap hands from John, two from the left, one more from the right, after

the clap from the girl in front of me, I saw all the students are clapping. This sound right

now like my heart is beating, this is the sound of success. And:

- I want to say thanks to two people, one is John- I point at him, and he acted like a

gentlemen bow to the lady, like" you're welcome"- and one is Lisa they supported me a

lot, make me have enough "power" to stand here right now. The last sentence I wanna

says is thanks to listening.

And I leave, retransfer the stage to John. Now I'm listening to his story like a friend.

- Hi, I'm John, I bet that someone in there knows me before when I change my look-

What? Change his look?- I just change my look to reach Sarah to make her stronger,

she has enough scar on her heart, please don't hurt her. Did she do something wrong?

No, she didn't, just because of what she looks like? That's not fair. And after I said this

and want to say sorry with Sarah- Yes, you should- I'm sorry Sarah because I'm lying

about all my story, my name is John Miller, I'm a normal person- and he went inside.

I was hurt when he said that he is a normal person that time I feel like that I'm lonely

again in the world but just the second after I wake up, he helps me a lot. I shouldn't think

that. I come to the spot next to Lisa, she smiles at me, she always smiles at me, a

beautiful smile. You know why I want to say thanks for Lisa, because she teaches me a

lesson. I asked her:" why you have to endure Jinx and Clove, just tell them to do their

work, you and I don't have to do that for them, we got a low score because of them."

and she says:" if now you said that with them, our friendship is broken and the life will

be mess, just do that, like you did something good, sometimes you just forgive

someone". And that time I forgive all the people that hurt me. John comes and sits next

to me.

- Wanna says anything to me?

- Do you angry?- He like a kid did something wrong.

- No, of course, no, after all the good things you did to me I just angry with you because

of that little thing? No, I have to say thanks a hundred time to you John, thank you. Ah,

change your look, maybe I will change mine too.

The first day of my new life, when I walk in the hallway, everyone says hi to me and

smile, oh I love that feeling. When I walking I see a guy wave at me and call my name.

But I don't know who is he.

- Hi Sarah.

- Hi, I'm sorry but who are you?- he looks familiar, but I don't remember, I feel bad about

that.

- Ok, let me introduce myself again, my name is John Miller, your first normal friend,

right?- Oh my god, my face that time like an "O", he is so handsome with his tan skin,

look so strong, tall, and awesome. That's all my thinking when I met him.

- Why don't you change your look?

- No, I don't want to, I want to feel confident about myself this year, because I never

proud of it before, this time I need to have redemption for my body.

This evening I wear a short clothes go outside with John and watch his soccer game.

Now I will live better.