It's nothing like it is now.
I figured that out, and now I know.
But here's my story
. . . . . . . . . .
Everything I had disappeared and vanished
a few years ago.
It was all granted to me,
and I guess it just isn't supposed to be like that.
You took me for granted,
and I can no longer stand it.
This is my life,
and it's my respect that I demand,
and it's my life now that I will command.
I will no longer let you control me,
so you better listen up.
I gave up everything just for you,
stood by your side, completely devo...
I can't say that I love you,
because it would be too true.
I'm not good with honesty,
I'm not good with feelings.
You taught me all that,
you opened my eyes to these things.
And now you're gone,
just like that.
How do I go on?
Square one is where I'm still at,
I feel you around me, gradually digging yourself under my skin.
I sense your presence all around, even when I can't physically see you.
Your essence is heavy, almost too dark to be detected.
I wish I could see your aura, show it to everyone I know,
Draw it on the skylights, on all the wa...
The unspoken truth is
cleverly masked behind
clouded and reluctant eyes.
They contain unique wit
and unconditional love; if
only that was enough.
Our eyes search for the
extensively concealed truth in each other
They're just too sugar-coated with our convoluted lies;
"Oh what ...
You were there
in the beginning.
You taught us all how to love
and cherish every moment
of our gifted lives
Though you are no longer around,
you still are.
You live in me every day
of my life.
I am overly-proud to call
myself a relative of yours.
I've obtained much of my
I don't know how we got here,
All I know is that I could
never say goodbye to you
But see, I'm certain this is
exactly what I must do
You are now flying away from
the nest and as horrifying as
I understand it's for the best;
Because you will soon be
I wish I could go back and change what's been altered;
Go back and see my mistakes, my errors, and make them my wonders, my happiest memories.
I want to go back and fix what's left of my fabrications.
I lived a life full of dishonesty, low-morals and values;
But I can't go back;...
Do you remember all the times we spent together?
All the times we've laughed;
All the times we've cried;
All the times we joked about how we'd never grow up and stay like this forever, side by side?
All the countless times we played until exhaustion completely overcame us?
So many questions and yet, unable to ask a single one;
My courage is within the very pits of my aching heart where I sewed up all my memoranda of you;
You're located just where my audacity may be detected
This is in an exclusively secretive place to where I alone hold the key;
My own pers...
Perfect features, graceful movements;
Pale skin, piercing eyes framed in exquisite thick black lashes
Delicate structure and form, contradicting the attitude
Everyone wanting to be with her, no one seeing the true self that hides childishly behind the mask
If you look clo...
Everyone says we're so different; but are we really?
I'm the small one that throws the punches
You're the one with the huge mouth almost as wide as the ego
And yet, I watch you now, poorly trying to contemplate on why I stay away;
They're all saying I'm the bigger ...
I had dreamed I was missing;
You were so scared
But no one would listen,
cause no one else cared;
After my dreaming, I woke with this fear;
What am I leaving, when I'm done here?
So if you're asking me, I want you to know
When my time comes, forget the wrong that I've done;
This feels just like another dream;
Trapped underneath my own routines;
I try to lift it off of me;
I give up, I give up; Just sit and breathe
I'm paralyzed; I'm stuck in the middle;
Caught inside a stupid dream
Look for her, but cannot see;
I give up, I give up;
There's no ti...
Snowflakes lay so gracefully on dark eyelashes and the very tips of extremely pale fingers.
I just stare up at the distinct gray sky and smile.
I open my mouth, softly feeling the ice cold touch of winter's gifts.
They continuously fall and linger all around me, a constant reminder of a ...
Her deep violet eyes pierced through me like a double-edged knife.
I took in a quick breath.
Of course she noticed.
Her ink black hair swayed with every graceful movement she portrayed.
"Why aren't you afraid, Andrea?"
The way she said my name. Her exotic, soft voice made it soun...
Thank you for being with me;
Even though I never quite saw you, I know you were there
Swarming around me, just like an angry bee;
It's easier to hate, it's harder to love me;
You don't understand; You're quick here to judge me
Put your feet in my Nikes;
Picture you living...
Time is many things;
Short or long, Fast or slow;
It can seem to drag on forever, never quite reaching it's destination.
It feels like the minute hand on a clock;
The blood behind a distinct purple bruise;
The light skin stretching itself as a regular scab over a scar.
But time does pass;...