Contemplating downing a whole bottle of pills to take the edge off

I'm looking hard for ways to bust my heart out.

Don't contest just let me complete the final test.

I dont want to be alive anymore,

I know that's dark but why am I going through the motions

Why am I never really there,

Why am I never aware of it?

I feel my head slipping away, I have lost my golden edge

I was once a hopeful kid

Now the toxicity just numbing my emotions

The autopsy just realizing I'm just messed up all around.

Had more fakes saying I ain't worth the time anymore

But the ones that hurt were the ones that used to be my friends

I feel betrayed by myself,

All because I can't contain the death in me.

I want to see the life god had planned for me,

But in all honesty I cant see the life I have now.

I can't force myself to making it another day anymore.

Its come to the point where I am begging.

Please someone come kill me.

I tried and failed, I'm to scared to do it gracefully.

I would do it sloppy like my life has been,

I am an evil one, I am petrified of me but I can't control me

Someone come save me. Someone come stop me.

I have no regard for my life anymore.

Just yesterday I flicked off a dude and he came to fight me

I almost said, "Why don't you just come and end me?"

"Why don't you offload your tool in me?"

I need help but that isn't for me. The demons are back again,

The same ones I will never beat. I let them take me.

I let them demons kill my soul.

They strangled me utill I was laying as still as a old man on his death bed.