Pray- recite this at my funeral
To those of you who are emotional
This is what the devil had to say
He told me these words without delay
Said he: "Here are a few facts for you to know
You've got no one who loves you nor a real home"
Maybe I have a heart that beats
But in me there's no place where love and soul meet
My body may work and so does my brain
But inside there's nothing more than pain
Sometime's I'd wish that I was dead
I fight imaginary monsters in my head
I emerge out of battle covered in my own blood
And the battles continue;nothing can be done
It's me again myself, I have no one else
Save the devil hiding my sanity on the highest shelf
My mind locks me in an iron bar cage
There's no one in the world who can save-
My words get cut off my the truth of the matter
Between realities and lies, I choose the latter
I scare myself with my own thoughts
Because in dark places my mind can get lost
I'm stuck in this thing we call "life"
Where there's only lows and never any highs
I battle with fear
Everyday of every year
Yet I'm not sure why Im still here
I wish my mask wasn't so fragile
I wish happiness wasn't so many miles
Away
What is it we look for?
Money and nothing more
If people were rain
Id be a drizzle and hurricane
I spoke to the devil- the devil being me
I traded my soul for a sense of sanity
Now I still see the trees and sky
But all color has turned into black and white
You see a scarf- I see a noose
Think to myself: "I'd better take this chance soon"
No Im not as fine as I seem
My silence is always beggin you to please
Just sit down with me for a while
'Cos explaining my pain will take a while
I'm a prinsoner of my own mind
Don't try to look inside
My screams are always silent
My thoughts are scary and violent
And while . this may not make and sense
Just think about these words that have been said
Because now has finally come the time
For me to end this rhyme