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And I Can't Breathe

November 6, 2015
By sarahcarp63 DIAMOND, Denver, Colorado
sarahcarp63 DIAMOND, Denver, Colorado
51 articles 2 photos 17 comments

Favorite Quote:
'The really important people in life have a way of coming back to you'
'Good enough isn't good enough'
'You don't have to be sick to get better'
'Come what may and love it'


Swallow air swallow air
But nothing’s going in there
It’s like I got a punctured lung
Hollow screams echo off my tongue
Turn my bedroom lights back on
Stare in the mirror too long
All I see is a little girl with braids
Tears streaming, contorted face

Flex my fingers, squeeze my hands
Anxiety taking control
I see every awful thing that I am
Curl up into a ball

And the worse pain
Comes at night
When no delusion
Can satisfy my mind
Try to find a night time remedy
But I think of every unpleasant memory
Every regret, every mistake
Etch tears on my face
And I can’t breathe

Close my eyes, close my eyes
But it doesn’t make me blind
It’s like all the darkness is binding
I keep looking but I’m not finding
Pace around the room again
Feel like I’m going somewhere strange
Escape all this chaos in my head
But it hasn’t gone away yet

Flex my fingers, squeeze my hands
Anxiety taking control
I see every awful thing that I am
Curl up into a ball

And the worse pain
Comes at night
When no delusion
Can satisfy my mind
Try to find a night time remedy
But I think of every unpleasant memory
Every regret, every mistake
Etch tears on my face
And I can’t breathe

Anxiety hurts
Depressions worse
I don’t know the first
Thing about fixing myself
My life is
Indecisive
I try to keep quiet
But I need help

And the worse pain
Comes at night
When no delusion
Can satisfy my mind
Try to find a night time remedy
But I think of every unpleasant memory
Every regret, every mistake
Etch tears on my face
And I can’t breathe



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on Nov. 9 2015 at 9:14 pm
Casseopia SILVER, New York, New York
6 articles 0 photos 2 comments

Favorite Quote:
Normal is a setting on a washing machine.
~Anonymous

Your lyrics are beautiful and very relatable. Your descriptions of depression were very accurate and realistic, and you managed to describe your feelings without being cliche. Amazing.