she looks down on you and says
“you don’t love yourself
well that’s ridiculous
because you’re the reason i breathe”
yet when i show you adoration
you begin to cry, saying it’s a lie

so let the blood drain, why not
i can’t drink it all, but it’s fun to try
i’ve been giving you constellations
you can’t give me one damn star
you wrecked me
i apologized
stop pretending life
doesn’t terrify us both
how do i save myself from
my self destruction?

I’ve never known grey
I've never known grey
Just brutal honesty and lies
I’d rather have vanity than self loathing
So bring me those reflective skies
This red dress is to match my bloodshot eyes
These insomniac nights are my norm
Don’t listen to me if you’re afraid of thunder
Because my life is a storm
my life is a storm

because if you can’t explain it, you don’t understand it
but i do and i’m not backing down

death ends life but not impact
because nothing can kill you more than your mind
and mine is among the living, blind
it’s the reason i’m the pessimist that i am
oh stop me from being this cavalier
it’s all because this mirror’s atomic, dear
how do i save myself from my self destruction?

I’ve never known grey
Just brutal honesty and lies
I’d rather have vanity than self loathing
So bring me those reflective skies
This red dress is to match my bloodshot eyes
These insomniac nights are my norm
Don’t listen to me if you’re afraid of thunder
Because my life is a storm