O.C.D | Teen Ink

O.C.D

June 11, 2017
By Swigswagmaster BRONZE, South Berwick, Maine
Swigswagmaster BRONZE, South Berwick, Maine
3 articles 0 photos 0 comments

Favorite Quote:
If you can't love yourself then how the hell are you going to love somebody else?


I have to tap seven times.
I have to do it or my family will die.
There’s a voice in my head that tells me this.

It has my voice.

It sounds like me but it’s not.
And I know the voice is probably lying
but you only have one family.
You only have one chance to keep them safe.
And what if the voice is telling the truth?
I can’t risk it.
And so I do it.
I tap seven times.
And I don’t want to, even when it tells me to do it again.
But I have to.
The stakes are too high if I don’t.
I feel trapped in my own mind
Forced to perform these
pointless
pointless
pointless
pointless
pointless
pointless
pointless things.
But I can’t stop or something terrible will happen.
At least that’s what the voice tells me.

Nothing can cage you like fear

and fear of your own voice is the worst kind. 


The author's comments:

I tried to write about what it felt like having crippling OCD for two years.


Similar Articles

JOIN THE DISCUSSION

This article has 0 comments.