One word decided my entire childhood
One word broke my heart time and time again
One word, so popular among peers, family, and even friends.
To many, this is all I was.
To many, my size was all that mattered.
To too many, I listened, and I believed.
I was not funny, or talented, or smart
I was not humble, or kind, or loving
I was not honest, or compassionate, or driven
I was just
At least, that is all that people saw.
At least, that is all that I saw.
All that I see.
FAT! FAT! FAT!
I just want to be free
I'm tired of being prisoner to this idea of the perfect body
I'm tired of crying and screaming to my reflection
I'm tired of hating myself
I'm just so
of never being seen for more than my
f a t.