One word decided my entire childhood

One word broke my heart time and time again

One word, so popular among peers, family, and even friends.

FAT

To many, this is all I was.

To many, my size was all that mattered.

To too many, I listened, and I believed.

FAT

I was not funny, or talented, or smart

I was not humble, or kind, or loving

I was not honest, or compassionate, or driven

I was just

FAT

At least, that is all that people saw.

At least, that is all that I saw.

All that I see.

FAT! FAT! FAT!

I just want to be free

I'm tired of being prisoner to this idea of the perfect body

I'm tired of crying and screaming to my reflection

I'm tired of hating myself

I'm just so

TIRED

of never being seen for more than my

f a t.