Forget last night, trying to forget the pains I cause. If he only knew about the secrets I keep. Drowning, trapped in my own mistakes. I can't get out, trying to feel, looking in all the wrong places to fulfill some need. Loosing myself all the time to momentary highs, always followed by a crash. Falling, feeling like I'm in some kind of horrible wonderland. Searching for a way out of this hole. Finding solace in different arms. Unsatisfied by the love I have. Wandering and searching for something to fulfill the emptiness I feel deep inside.
May 17, 2017