May 10, 2017
By helen_ikonic GOLD, Toronto, Ontario
helen_ikonic GOLD, Toronto, Ontario
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Favorite Quote:
"Success is a lousy teacher. It seduces smart people into thinking they can't lose." -Bill Gates

"Don't let anyone ever make you feel like you don't deserve what you want. Go for it." -10 Things I Hate About You (1999)

I inhale fumes of jealousy, vehemently.
I palate crumbs of envy, lividly.


I envision pools of failure, in which I am a victim of drowning.
I hear giggles of joy, while I am deafened by my nothingness.


I'm a somnambulist in a nightmare of emotions
In a real-life dystopian film, perpetual in all its horror.


But when will I learn,
That to be angry at the antagonists -
To be vengeful, disdainful -
Is only deflecting the beam of shame
I should be pointing at myself.


So what happens if I become my own best friend;
Instead of hating, berating, and disdaining myself,
What happens if I learn to love my self?


Because how else can someone else
Fall in love with my self
If I cannot even
Love my self?

The author's comments:

With recent college decisions being released, I have experienced a rollercoaster of emotions, some not so good, especially geared towards others. In retrospect, it was actually good to be rejected; the entire college application process is growth in itself, and I learned how easy it is to fall into a cycle of self-loathing whenever I allow others to evaluate me for my accomplishments and abilities. My friends may have gotten into better schools than I did, but I am now so proud of them because I love them and I agree that their accomplishments deserve to be celebrated. I am thankful for having this once-in-a-lifetime experience.

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