I never thought an attack could really be blamed on the victim
Especially in a world i thought to be so evolved
But i guess that's why the topic is so taboo
I guess that's why even I blamed myself

I never thought that going on a run could hurt so much
Especially when it was supposed to keep me grounded
But I guess that's why it was so shocking
I guess that's why he got so far

I never thought my body would be so invisibly marred
Especially when a man was never supposed to know its twists and turns
But I guess that's why I lost myself so fast
I guess that's why it took me so long

I never thought my safe place could be so destroyed
Especially when it was so isolated, so far
But I guess that's how he found me
I guess that's how no one heard

I never thought the world was so cruel
Especially when I was so young
But I guess that's why I was so vulnerable
I guess that's why I kept quiet for so long

I never thought I could be so empowered to help
Especially when I felt so helpless
But I guess that's why I'm a better person now
I guess that's why the nightmares have slowed

I never thought I would feel so at home
Especially when my own had been taken
But I guess that’s why I am comfortable again
I guess that’s why I can breath again

I never thought I could feel so much self-love
Especially when my body was wrapped in him
But I guess that’s why he didn’t win
I guess that’s why I can accept it now

I never thought I could be so strong
Especially when I was in such a threatening situation
But i guess that’s why I started running again
I guess that’s why i’ll never stop again

I never thought I could grow up so fast
Especially when I was feeling such child-like fear
But I guess that why I still regret how long it took
I guess that’s why I know it isn’t my fault anymore and that it never was and it never will be