I Hate Writing

November 4, 2016
By ATroubledWriter GOLD, Pace, Florida
ATroubledWriter GOLD, Pace, Florida
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Favorite Quote:
“The words you can’t find, you borrow. We read to know we’re not alone. We read because we are alone. We read and we are not alone. We are not alone. My life is in these books, he wants to tell her. Read these and know my heart. We are not quite novels. The analogy he is looking for is almost there. We are not quite short stories. At this point, his life is seeming closest to that. In the end, we are collected works.” ― Gabrielle Zevin, The Storied Life of A.J. Fikry


I hate writing, 

Words spilling on a page

A fallacy, 

A facade, 

A pen or pencil in hand waiting to create

Fake feelings. 

A sentence or two strung together 

With the elegance of a feather, 

    slowly

          floating 

                 down

I hate writing, 

Poems that rhyme 

And the people that only give you the time of day

When your words are written down on a page

In a lyrical verse.

I hate writing

When I'm cold

Because the warmth of the paper rubbing against my hand

Starts to disperse

And then my hand is the only thing that is warm.  

I hate writing, 

Because feelings spoken previously can also be the truth, 

Fist curling up tightly,

Graphite pressed hard against paper;

Hand cramps fueled by real emotions

Mixed with fake descriptions.  

I hate writing

Because I am good at it

Compliments from peers and adults encouraging it...

The writing, 

Not me. 

I hate writing

Because I will only ever be good at it

Shattered dreams of creating a book

When I have short-stories on hold.

I hate writing

Because I always have to do what I'm told. 

Why? Why are there so many rules?

I hate writing

Because my pencil has become a tool

For them, 

Not me. 

I hate writing 

Because it is not for me, 

No self-satisfaction anymore

Just trying to write what will sell in a store. 

How about a post-apocalyptic masterpiece?

Or two kids with cancer who fall in love?

Oh wait, 

That's already been done. 

Copiously.

I hate writing

Because it is the only thing I am good at.

No extracurriculars or plays to attend

Just a girl who writes poems everyday

Alone.

I hate writing

Because no matter how many characters I create,

Or the shadow of my pencil dancing across the page,

I am still alone. 

I hate writing

Because it is the only thing I have ever truly loved, 

To exist without it would prove only numb.

I hate writing

Because without it, 

I am nothing. 


The author's comments:

This can be interpreted however the reader wants to, I am merely trying to prove a point to myself, through my own writing, because the words in my head are in constant conflict with each other. 


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