My hands are shaking
Terror is running in my veins
I know if I fail
I won't get a second chance.

I hear the whispers of voices
Haunting my head

“You can't do it.” and “You'll fail, so just give up.”
Are repeated like a mantra.

The voices are praying to my anxiety
My mind their sacrifice.
They feed my depression
Till it has taken over me

My mind and body
Are held prisoner by
Inner me.

I am no longer seating in a desk
But drowning in a sea of emptiness

I can't see the light
For I am surrounded by black and blue

I scream out
But my lungs fill with black ink before any words come out.

I’m terrified
Someone help

Release me from my thoughts
Send my back to reality.

I scream and cry
But no one hears

I punch and kick
But no one feels a thing

As I sink into the darkest that is my soul

I get a tiny thought

Freeing me was the hardest test of all.