I thought it was gone...
Every aspect.
Every emotion.
Forgotten.
But now it's back.
The cold familiar feeling embraces me.
I feel myself being dragged down.
I scream and claw at the air but there is nothing...
Just darkness.
I'm falling now...faster and faster by the second.
My fear drifts away and I'm filled with an unusual sense of comfort.
I know where I'm heading...I've been here many times before.
I'm trapped in the abyss that I tried so desperately to escape.
It begins to consume me.
I know this time, no matter how hard I try, I can't win.
I thought that I could live without it but in reality I need it to survive.