Have you ever had this dark cloud over you?
Have it ever decided to stick around and take away the smile you once had?
Have you ever just sat down and thought about life?
Where you would be if things had gone differently...
A memory to where you were a while ago.
I always wonder how things would have been.
Life can be either the best thing or the worst thing,
Depending on how you put it,
right now, it's kicking my a**.
I feel so alone. I have no one to talk to, I am miles away from home.
Building a new home and a new future.
One mistake is just haunting me…
The person I love decides to stay after everything and yet they hold my mistake above my head…
I feel like I am trapped, But I love the person, Everytime I do something by accident,
They throw it in my face.
"I knew they were right!" He would always say.
"I didn't mean it" I would cry.
But what's the use, Seriously?
How could a love grow so cold?
I mean yes, 75% of the time we are best friends.
But I always have these thoughts I have to keep locked away due to the fact I know they would get mad or They would turn it around on me...
Some things are just better left unsaid.
Don't get me wrong I am happy, it's just all this negative emotions are getting to me.
I feel I am all alone and 25% of the time I have no idea what to do....
I wanna stay, But the thought of what I did to him…
Haunts me….