All this time I thought you would make me happy.

I dreamt one look from you

Would satisfy my hungry soul.

I convinced myself the love you never offered

Was what I needed to be complete.

How could I be so wrong?

When my heart was shattered glass,

When I screamed into my pillow "Why?"

When I fell into the deep abyss

And darkness overtook my life,

You were never there.

But He was.

Somehow, the idea was planted

That you held the key to my heart.

And somehow that idea sprouted,

Blooming in my heart like a deceptive weed.

The falsest of all fantasies:

That one day you would run to me,

With open arms and a love unyielding.

Forever I would be yours alone.

But you never did.

No, never.

But then I met him.

Even while my heart was chasing you,

He pursued me recklessly, never giving up.

I betrayed His love and craved your poison,

But even still He never left my side.

And when you said the words that broke me.

I found myself alone.

But there He stood with arms wide open,

And a love like I have never known.

Unyielding, eternal, and true.

With scars in His palms,

He calls me beloved.

He sung me a song and rejoiced over me.

This reckless lover laid down His life

To have me at His side forever.

And to think, all this time,

It was you I was after.

How could I be so blind?