i sit here in the light of the world
and all i see is dark shadows
all colors just blend together
in a blur
speeding past my eyes
spinning round and round making me dizzy
my eyes and brain try to slow things down
process them
it works for a while
then it picks up the pace
and i am lost once more
i hold on only to be knocked down
i fall into a deep void
reaching out
wanting to be saved
hoping
praying
to be saved
who knew there could be joy in sorrow
and love in hate
and beauty and darkness
i see your face and hear your voice
and i can only think
of all the hateful
things you said
you smile but it drips with venom
you wait to strike when i am most vulnerable
you hit a low and hard blow
you will leave and not think twice about it
but with that i am not hurt
i am glad you will be leaving
its for the best
yes you made me who
i am
you make me
how strong i am
but without you here
i can finally breathe
i am free to feel
once again
i can slowly start living again
brining my dead spirit back to life
so you leaving is the best thing