I know you know

I know you’ve known for a while

I’ve known since the first time the green dot showed

I’ve known since the air was dry with the sweat of demons

I’ve known since long-ago-and-far-away

I’ve known through snakes of smoke minted fresh

I’ve known through dumplings and movies and poker

I’ve known when I didn’t known anything else

I’ve known when the street was quiet but for my headphones

I’ve known where the vermin happily crawl

I’ve known where balloons crash open

I didn’t always know I knew

But now I know

I know the scent of laughter mixed with chlorine

I know bubbles of pills crashing through tiles

I know mountain goats in the shower

I know brave cowards and cowardly martyrs

I know pain taken gladly upon

I know how to put it off

I know how to not know what it is

I know how to not care what it is

I how to feel when you don’t

I know how to feel what you don’t

I know what to feel

I’ve known you’ve known

And now you know