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I met you at Jessica’s fourteenth birthday party,
where we stayed up all night on the couch.
I don’t remember a word of what we talked about
but I can still see you there, with the blanket on your lap,
and you were laughing. Always laughing.
I’m glad we became best friends.

I was there for your fifteenth birthday –
we watched “Flushed Away” at the Grand.
We laughed about it as we ate cake
in the glass party room where everyone could see us.
I’m sure that if they noticed you, what they saw was that
you were so alive.

You were there when I turned fifteen, and we ate at Friday’s.
I took a picture of you there.
Your dad has it now, he keeps it with him.
And I haven’t eaten there since.

Jessica didn’t celebrate her fifteenth birthday the same –
by then, you were gone.

For your sixteenth birthday, all your friends gathered
at your grave, and we wrote you notes.
We rolled them up tight and put them in balloons.
We sent the balloons away and pretended
you would get them.

I turned sixteen.
I lit a candle; I wished you were there.

Saturday is your seventeenth birthday.
And it’s hard to believe.
This year, I think we will try to forget.
But your impact, it’s still here.
It’s like tiny craters in my skin.
And I will always remember you,
through all the years.
Through all the
birthdays.

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demetria said...
May 27, 2010 at 4:54 pm
i liked the concept. at first i was a little confused with who died..Jessica or someone else. i now understand what's going on. try revising the line that says "Jessica didn't celebrate her 15th birthday the same- by then, you were gone." this line was what confused me. if you add a because after same, then it would probably make more sense.
 
demetria replied...
Jun. 1, 2010 at 6:48 pm
well i do apologize for the "concept" part. and no apologies necessary. if i were in the same position as you i would have probably said the same things that you did if not WORSE.
 
hey waz up said...
May 21, 2010 at 12:03 pm
very touching, you should write a book about her
 
hi waz up said...
May 21, 2010 at 12:02 pm
wow! beautiful
 
Kerstin W. said...
May 18, 2010 at 5:59 pm
Wow. This is amazing.
 
hannahbee7 This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. said...
May 16, 2010 at 8:45 pm
I favorited it! This was wonderful, I can't really relate but I just spent months writing a novel about loosing a best friend. Poems and stories like this inspired me so much! I just wanted to thank you and say I'm sorry for your loss. My 15th birthday is tomorrow. 
 
Jilybeanrb This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. replied...
May 27, 2010 at 7:53 pm
Thank you, I appreciate it very much. I hope you enjoy being fifteen! It's a good age.
 
Patience97 said...
May 5, 2010 at 2:43 pm
Sorry for your loss :( Sometimes I feel like I've lost my friends, so, you're not the only one :(
 
Patience97 said...
May 5, 2010 at 2:42 pm
This is a really nice piece. I love all writing with a meaning of something more behind it -- you did just that :))
 
Mspi18 said...
May 5, 2010 at 10:18 am
oh my gosh. this is a beautiful piece. definatly one of my favorties. its so moving and so personal. glad you could put it out there. you must truely be very strong.
 
Jilybeanrb This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. replied...
May 5, 2010 at 11:09 am
Awe thank you. That means alot to me ♥.
 
Mspi18 replied...
May 5, 2010 at 9:17 pm
anytime, great work 
 
Jilybeanrb This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. said...
Apr. 14, 2010 at 12:36 am
You're welcome. I'm glad it could help in some way. I know it's the hardest thing.
 
Jilybeanrb This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. replied...
Apr. 14, 2010 at 12:37 am
Well this is what I get for posting so late at night. Sorry guys, wrong button, this was supposed to be a reply.
 
dominicana said...
Apr. 13, 2010 at 9:21 pm
wow this poem is realy good and very sad keep on writing im sure a lot of people can realte to this poem
 
SOSaiXD This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. said...
Apr. 13, 2010 at 8:21 pm
I just recently lost a close friend, so that poem really touched me. Thank you.
 
Jilybeanrb This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. replied...
Apr. 14, 2010 at 12:37 am
You're welcome. I'm glad it could help in some way. I know it's the hardest thing.
 
Liquid_Sky This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. said...
Mar. 22, 2010 at 5:18 pm
Wow this make me choke up its soo amazing
 
green-eyed-angle said...
Feb. 28, 2010 at 4:55 pm
O my god i am so sorry. Do you hate it when peolpe say i know how you feel
 
Infinite_Possibility said...
Feb. 28, 2010 at 11:55 am
such a deep poem, with so many emotions. im sorry that you lost your friend.
 
dancingdaisies said...
Feb. 13, 2010 at 10:06 pm
oh my god thats SO sad!!! i lajit cried!!! if you dont mind my asking, how did it happen?
 
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