While everyone around me sleeps the night away,
I'm awake with anxiety the monster that wants to play.
I can feel my heart beat radiating through my back
I can feel another one, another big attack.
The tears start to flow
Any minute now i'm about to explode
A weird sensation shivers down my spine
It makes me cringe with time.
I hear strange sounds in my head,
Why cant i just be asleep in bed?
I beg and i scream
"Can't this all be just a dream?"
My head aches with rage
The monster needs to be put back in the cage.
It slowly becomes distant
but the attacks are becoming more consistent.
I'm starting to feel calm once again
I let the tears flow no need to pretend.
No need to look strong,
No need to sing that silly song.
No one is awake to hear me
I'm always alone don't you see?
Nobody knows the real me
How lonely can I be?
Sure i have friends
Are they really here till the end?
They tell me it's just a phase
Little do they know its more than one case.
i finally start to feel tired,
My skin starts to feel like fire
The monster is done for the night,
I don't think i can put up another fight.