Chaos Theory MAG

November 14, 2008
By Debbie G., Arlington Heights, IL, Arlington Heights, IL

Carolyn says she believes in angels
while mascara spiders creep thickly along the
heavy baggage beneath her eyes like the
black pitch of the school hallways at night or
the charcoal that she dips her fingernails in and I
remember cheating on my math test that morning
So
I tell her I believe in people.

Roasted honey nut, the color she was born with but
you really wouldn’t know it because of the midnight L’Oréal
she chooses, tragically highlighted with Punk Pink or
Raging Red from a bottle and 15
minutes of waiting –
It spills limply over her black eyes whenever she leans down to write and
Carolyn says she believes in fate.

In planets aligning in the universe and
Feng shui that keeps mice away and prevents ulcers but also
makes a girl fall in love with a boy but
I know all about chemistry and hormones and catalysts so I
think I believe in science.

In reincarnation, she thinks she’ll come back as a bird
Or maybe a peacock and I say I agree when I
see those striped stockings that come to her knees and
neon earrings lifeless at her shoulders but she only laughs …
tells me I never really see her and to
call her later.

Now with the dial tone in my ear
the cold trembling and I’m suffocating on nothing
because I really see her and I
know she believes in the afterlife but
she doesn’t believe in laughter and
the phone just rings and rings and rings …

Carolyn said she believed in angels.



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on May. 31 2011 at 10:44 am
Peace.Love.Music. PLATINUM, Los Angeles, California
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Favorite Quote:
I love you ?

This truly gives me shivers. There are very few poems or writing that can make me shiver, but this really hit home. Well done (: 

on May. 28 2011 at 12:03 pm
Rachael Boneck BRONZE, North Prairie, Wisconsin
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hahaha so did i... but i agree 9cats, im happy it didnt now that i read it.

on May. 26 2011 at 2:48 pm
thankfate SILVER, HELLO WISCONSIN!!!, Wisconsin
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This is by far one of the best poems I have ever read. It has a sense of bittersweet.

on May. 15 2011 at 11:53 am
Finding-me PLATINUM, Dover-Foxcroft, Maine
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Favorite Quote:
It's kind of fun to do the impossible

this is the poem that I read every time i log on, its amazing and moving.

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on May. 13 2011 at 9:30 pm
RedFace BRONZE, Austin, Texas
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Oh my Gosh. You are a fantastic writer and I love this poem. It is depressing and it means a whole lot. The way you just said this and created an image. I love this and It is so sad.

on May. 13 2011 at 6:53 pm
TheEdgar PLATINUM, Fayetteville, North Carolina
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Favorite Quote:
"If you are in need of forgetting something, make a note to remember it."

beautifully tragic

on Apr. 23 2011 at 7:49 am
radicalhonesty GOLD, Alpharetta, Georgia
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Favorite Quote:
There is no situation, facet, or aspect of life that cannot be improved with pizza. -Daria

did she die?

on Apr. 21 2011 at 7:43 pm
perpetuallydancing GOLD, Prairie Village, Kansas
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Favorite Quote:
"If you don't have any shadows, you're not standing in the light."
- Lady Gaga

wow. just wow. beautifully written, and good job being not right to the point. that's what poetry's about. beautiful. keep writing! i love it.

on Apr. 21 2011 at 6:35 pm
JamesBLaurie SILVER, Montreal, Other
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Favorite Quote:
Either write something worth reading or do something worth writing - Benjamin Franklin

sorry, I meant 'SIMPLY' put

on Apr. 21 2011 at 6:34 pm
AndySixxLover GOLD, Weatherford, Texas
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Favorite Quote:
These violent delights have violent ends and in there triumph die like fire and powder in witch their kiss consume

okay nevermind i read it again and i was left breathless this was amazing

on Apr. 21 2011 at 6:26 pm
AndySixxLover GOLD, Weatherford, Texas
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Favorite Quote:
These violent delights have violent ends and in there triumph die like fire and powder in witch their kiss consume

okay will you explain this to me i dont understand it

on Apr. 21 2011 at 11:30 am
JamesBLaurie SILVER, Montreal, Other
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Favorite Quote:
Either write something worth reading or do something worth writing - Benjamin Franklin

Simple put...WOW!!!

on Apr. 11 2011 at 4:51 pm
__horizon133 PLATINUM, Portage, Michigan
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Favorite Quote:
"laugh, and the world laughs with you. laugh hysterically, and for no apparent reason, and they will leave you alone." anonymous

dark and compelling. reminds me of one of my friends. well written too.

on Mar. 26 2011 at 3:08 pm
CaptainFabulous GOLD, Gray Summit, Missouri
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Favorite Quote:
"Sometimes I believe in as many as six impossible things before breakfast" - Lewis Carroll

this is a very beautiful poem i absolutely adore it

sad but seems so true

keep writing :D


on Mar. 14 2011 at 6:40 pm
FeelTheRomance18, Tucson, Arizona
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Favorite Quote:
love looks not with the eyes, but with the mind, and therefore is winged cupid painted blind. -Lysander, A Midsummer Night's Dream

No, im just kinda slow. But thats just sad. 

catlover said...
on Mar. 14 2011 at 11:12 am
why did you even say that, do you just skim?!!!!!

catlover said...
on Mar. 14 2011 at 11:08 am
extravagant, it bring memories that were half forgotten

on Mar. 12 2011 at 8:17 pm
silence-is-loud GOLD, Chicago, Illinois
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FLOAT LIKE A BUTTERFLY, STING LIKE A BEE- MUHAMMID ALI

lol u like to be depressed... why?

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on Mar. 11 2011 at 3:40 pm
JSchwartz GOLD, Gainesville, Florida
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Favorite Quote:
The problem isn't always the 1%, but the 99% who fight each other to be the 1%.

Great imagery, this poem really speaks out and has a nice ending especially. Keep up the good work

Cripsee said...
on Mar. 11 2011 at 12:10 pm
This is absolutely fantastic, and completely heartbreaking. You are an amazing poet.


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