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Chaos Theory This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. This work has won the Teen Ink contest in its category.

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Carolyn says she believes in angels
while mascara spiders creep thickly along the
heavy baggage beneath her eyes like the
black pitch of the school hallways at night or
the charcoal that she dips her fingernails in and I
remember cheating on my math test that morning
So
I tell her I believe in people.

Roasted honey nut, the color she was born with but
you really wouldn’t know it because of the midnight L’Oréal
she chooses, tragically highlighted with Punk Pink or
Raging Red from a bottle and 15
minutes of waiting –
It spills limply over her black eyes whenever she leans down to write and
Carolyn says she believes in fate.

In planets aligning in the universe and
Feng shui that keeps mice away and prevents ulcers but also
makes a girl fall in love with a boy but
I know all about chemistry and hormones and catalysts so I
think I believe in science.

In reincarnation, she thinks she’ll come back as a bird
Or maybe a peacock and I say I agree when I
see those striped stockings that come to her knees and
neon earrings lifeless at her shoulders but she only laughs …
tells me I never really see her and to
call her later.

Now with the dial tone in my ear
the cold trembling and I’m suffocating on nothing
because I really see her and I
know she believes in the afterlife but
she doesn’t believe in laughter and
the phone just rings and rings and rings …

Carolyn said she believed in angels.

This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. This piece has been published in Teen Ink’s monthly print magazine.

This work has won the Teen Ink contest in its category. This piece won the January 2009 Teen Ink Poetry Contest.




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endend1210 said...
May 26, 2011 at 2:48 pm:
This is by far one of the best poems I have ever read. It has a sense of bittersweet.
 
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Risingsoul said...
May 15, 2011 at 11:53 am:
this is the poem that I read every time i log on, its amazing and moving.
 
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RedFace said...
May 13, 2011 at 9:30 pm:
Oh my Gosh. You are a fantastic writer and I love this poem. It is depressing and it means a whole lot. The way you just said this and created an image. I love this and It is so sad.
 
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TheEdgar said...
May 13, 2011 at 6:53 pm:
beautifully tragic
 
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MalloryR. said...
Apr. 23, 2011 at 7:49 am:
did she die?
 
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cretalakaira This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. said...
Apr. 21, 2011 at 7:43 pm:
wow. just wow. beautifully written, and good job being not right to the point. that's what poetry's about. beautiful. keep writing! i love it.
 
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hungergames said...
Apr. 21, 2011 at 11:30 am:
Simple put...WOW!!!
 
madbunnymonique replied...
Apr. 21, 2011 at 6:26 pm :
okay will you explain this to me i dont understand it
 
madbunnymonique replied...
Apr. 21, 2011 at 6:34 pm :
okay nevermind i read it again and i was left breathless this was amazing
 
hungergames replied...
Apr. 21, 2011 at 6:35 pm :
sorry, I meant 'SIMPLY' put
 
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qui133 said...
Apr. 11, 2011 at 4:51 pm:
dark and compelling. reminds me of one of my friends. well written too.
 
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CaptainFabulous This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. said...
Mar. 26, 2011 at 3:08 pm:

this is a very beautiful poem i absolutely adore it

sad but seems so true

keep writing :D

 
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catlover said...
Mar. 14, 2011 at 11:08 am:
extravagant, it bring memories that were half forgotten
 
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Cripsee said...
Mar. 11, 2011 at 12:10 pm:
This is absolutely fantastic, and completely heartbreaking. You are an amazing poet.
 
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Anabelle said...
Mar. 9, 2011 at 8:37 pm:
this is beautiful. 
 
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FoxFace said...
Mar. 9, 2011 at 5:16 pm:
oh my god... did she... KILL HERSELF?????
 
catlover replied...
Mar. 14, 2011 at 11:12 am :
why did you even say that, do you just skim?!!!!!
 
VampiresEverywhere replied...
Mar. 14, 2011 at 6:40 pm :
No, im just kinda slow. But thats just sad. 
 
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kathrynnn said...
Mar. 9, 2011 at 3:12 pm:
I love this. The end really touched me. It reminded me of a book I recently read called The Anatomy of Wings by Karen Foxlee. 
 
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HorseLover said...
Mar. 9, 2011 at 6:15 am:
I've never read anything like this. Amazing!!
 
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