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Chaos Theory MAG

November 14, 2008
By Anonymous

Carolyn says she believes in angels
while mascara spiders creep thickly along the
heavy baggage beneath her eyes like the
black pitch of the school hallways at night or
the charcoal that she dips her fingernails in and I
remember cheating on my math test that morning
So
I tell her I believe in people.

Roasted honey nut, the color she was born with but
you really wouldn’t know it because of the midnight L’Oréal
she chooses, tragically highlighted with Punk Pink or
Raging Red from a bottle and 15
minutes of waiting –
It spills limply over her black eyes whenever she leans down to write and
Carolyn says she believes in fate.

In planets aligning in the universe and
Feng shui that keeps mice away and prevents ulcers but also
makes a girl fall in love with a boy but
I know all about chemistry and hormones and catalysts so I
think I believe in science.

In reincarnation, she thinks she’ll come back as a bird
Or maybe a peacock and I say I agree when I
see those striped stockings that come to her knees and
neon earrings lifeless at her shoulders but she only laughs …
tells me I never really see her and to
call her later.

Now with the dial tone in my ear
the cold trembling and I’m suffocating on nothing
because I really see her and I
know she believes in the afterlife but
she doesn’t believe in laughter and
the phone just rings and rings and rings …

Carolyn said she believed in angels.



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on May. 5 2010 at 2:15 pm
Brokenlover GOLD, Albany, Oregon
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I really liked this! You are super talented! I hope you get published!

on May. 4 2010 at 6:11 pm
Margaret Anderson, Hanscom Air Force Base, Massachusetts
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the editors really approved THAT

on May. 4 2010 at 5:54 pm
Emily.Anne BRONZE, Marblehead, Massachusetts
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Favorite Quote:
"Dream as if you'll live forever, live as if you'll die today."

WoW. 

you are one of the most talented people I have ever seen.


on May. 4 2010 at 1:54 pm
forgottenpenname GOLD, Troy, Michigan
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Favorite Quote:
"Carpe diem."

That was beautiful, and what an ending... goose bumps. That's all I can say.

DevonP SILVER said...
on May. 4 2010 at 1:50 pm
DevonP SILVER, Wolcott, New York
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Favorite Quote:
" There's nothing wrong with me, this is how i'm suppose to be in a land of make believe that don't believe in me" - Greenday

so Carolyn is an angel?

on May. 4 2010 at 1:06 pm
Theatricity BRONZE, Worthington, Other
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Oh my goodness...that was beautiful, and heartbreaking. You have a wonderful way with words - your words and descriptions make me jealous. Really.

on May. 4 2010 at 1:02 pm
heather_marie PLATINUM, Deshler, Ohio
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Favorite Quote:
\\\"Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice, but falling in love with you was beyond my control

oh my gosh that gave  goose bump down my spine that hit home for me

on May. 4 2010 at 8:55 am
Sierra Rowe BRONZE, San Antonio, Texas
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That was beautiful...

Emmalee SILVER said...
on May. 4 2010 at 8:25 am
Emmalee SILVER, Rayville, Louisiana
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Favorite Quote:
Life is what happens when you're busy making other plans. - John Lennon

That was amazing.

on May. 4 2010 at 3:11 am
that was goosebump-tear-in-the-corner-of-my-eye-heartbreakingly beautiful.

on Apr. 23 2010 at 10:53 am
s.nichole. PLATINUM, Ossian, Indiana
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I love this, so incredibly much.

on Apr. 22 2010 at 3:02 pm
JustKelly BRONZE, Warminster, Pennsylvania
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I can't begin to tell you how much this touched me.  Beautiful.

on Apr. 21 2010 at 7:05 pm
AndTheVinesSpin GOLD, Romulus, Michigan
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Favorite Quote:
"Love is the Movement" -TWLOHA
"Love is our weapon." -Christofer Drew
"I'ma get me a High School Diploma, even if I gotta steal one!" -ThisKidInMyMathClassLol

I'd love to hear this read out loud by you.

I read it out loud and It was really powerful.

Ever thought of recording a CD of your poetry?


on Apr. 20 2010 at 3:33 pm
psychedelic_wAves, Austin, Texas
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Favorite Quote:
"Life sucks, but in a beautiful kind of way"~ Axl Rose quote

i love the believe part  and the way the poem makes u wonder

 


on Apr. 13 2010 at 5:39 pm
sonnysulouff BRONZE, Clarendon Hills, Illinois
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yes, i do believe taht is the implication... so sad :(

on Apr. 13 2010 at 2:57 pm
Nora Sternlof SILVER, New London, Connecticut
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This is really beautiful. I love the emphasis on belief and what it does to a person to choose what they believe in. Very well-written.

on Apr. 12 2010 at 4:49 pm
sonnysulouff BRONZE, Clarendon Hills, Illinois
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This is amazing. I've read it again and again and I'm still excited to read it yet again. Keep up the good work!

on Apr. 12 2010 at 4:14 pm
ottersarah SILVER, Maryville, Tennessee
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Favorite Quote:
Everywhere, man blames nature and fate, yet his fate is only the echo of his character and passions, his mistakes and his weaknesses

I read a book about actual chaos theory, and i can hear it hear in your work. Beautiful title. Beautiful poem. :) keep it up

clh52 said...
on Apr. 12 2010 at 3:44 pm
this piece deserves one word, and i hope you know what it means: Beautiful.

on Apr. 12 2010 at 3:38 pm
soccerchickunc BRONZE, Winston Salem, North Carolina
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Favorite Quote:
There comes a time in life when you have to let go of all the drama, & surround yourself with people who make you laugh so hard; you forget about all the bad & focus soley on the good. After all, life's too short to be anything but happy (:

wow.... this is deep.