Love is elusive, exclusively keeping me lucid.
I've had mere morsels, but I hunger for a smorgasbord,
But the price paid internally is something I just can't afford.
Looking listlessly, wishfully wistful,
With a fist full of reasons why my heart is running dry.
I give myself whole-heartedly, but it's startling that every time
I get nothing in return but a lesson learned.
I got burned, send for a paramedic
Coping, but all isn't copacetic.
Why is it that I can never get back what I put in?
I stood by you through it all, but I still stood in
No man's land, now I'm looking for a helping hand.
Rejected more times than a vending machine dollar.
I need to let it out, if you find a venting machine, holler.
I've felt it all, 
Dejection, rejection, 
anger, hatred for my own reflection
Never feeling good enough, let me tell you, it's all so rough
Just waiting for that one special girl to make the ingrained pain worthwhile.
I'd walk a thousand miles, endure these countless trials 
just for her embrace.
I'm not sure who she is yet, 
and if she's on her way she best pick up the pace.
I've had too much space, I need someone close to erase
Misguided memories which mock me with malice.
Princess perfect better leave her palace before I get too
callous.
I truly try to trust but recent tribulations
Have stifled elations. Trust, once broken, is hard to replace.
I have to face past mistakes, and never make them again.
But if I can't trust how the hell do I let someone in?