There’s just all this pain built up inside and I can’t grasp on to what it all means and its driving me mad. Because I thought this was what i wanted but it hurts. It just really, really hurts. I just feel empty all the time and numb to everything and this isn’t what it was suppose to be like. I’m suppose to be happy but all I can think of is how much I miss you. And how I feel like I only have half of my whenever you’re gone. I just don’t feel happy without you.