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I'm Sorry For Me

I'm sorry that I'm here
I'm sorry, but I haven't shed a single tear

I'm sorry for the trouble,
I've caused on your behalf

And it doesn't seem all right for me
to listen to your sweet laugh

But even when you say it,
say I've done nothing wrong,

You are sincere, deep inside,
but I know I don't belong

I dream of my acceptance
in the big, big world

But more so I wish I could
have my heart unfurled

By you-
my heart unfurled by you,
is all I ever wanted

Though I'm much to young for such things,
there is a reason- my past is haunted

Haunted, you see, by terrible things

Bullies, words, and depression,
the list goes on and on

The reason for my yearning,
Why I seem to be long gone,

Is written in my history:
I think about love and such,
Maybe because I want it so much

I just wanted a friend,
just a friend to be by my side

But it seem this one simple request
has caused worlds to collide

Is it so much to ask
for one simple friend?

Apparently so.
Yes, it's much to comprehend

Just a companion I desired,
I didn't like you that way at first

But, oh, why'd it have to be so hard;
you've caused my heart to burst

I quiet explosion it was,
but an explosion all the same

For me to quietly like you
was my only aim

And it still is, of course-
could you expect any less?

But now you seems much different,
and it's more than a guess

Withdrawn and reserved you are,
at first we laughed together

But now you know to much to hide the feelings,
or is it something in the weather?

You'll never hear these feelings from me;
I'll stay as silent as a stone

For I will not mess up our friendship anymore,
my cover shall not be blown

Fake smile on my face,
head held high,

I never shed a single tear,
never did I cry

Pity for myself
is the feeling I felt least

Only longing for a friend,
sadness for what I put you through,
though you say I'm no beast

I'm sorry that I'm here
I'm sorry, but I haven't shed a single tear

I'm sorry for the trouble,
I've caused on your behalf

And it doesn't seem all right for me
to listen to your sweet laugh

But even when you say it,
say I've done nothing wrong,

You are sincere, deep inside,
but I know I don't belong



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ToPonJahThis teenager is a 'regular' and has contributed a lot of work, comments and/or forum posts, and has received many votes and high ratings over a long period of time. said...
Jun. 24, 2013 at 1:36 am:
I fell in love with the title first when it showed up in my email. Than I fell in love with your username: ToInfinitySkittles. Than I fell in love with your poem. Thank you for writing it. Thank you for posting it. Thank you for sharing it.
 
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JRayeThis teenager is a 'regular' and has contributed a lot of work, comments and/or forum posts, and has received many votes and high ratings over a long period of time. This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. said...
Jun. 21, 2013 at 7:59 pm:
Just beautiful :) I feel all the emotions you were trying to express. I'm not one for poetry I guess but this is truly incredible! Great job, Keep it up! :)
 
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Dancergirl224 said...
Jun. 21, 2013 at 12:31 pm:
Amazing peice of work!! I can relate to how you feel, I love how descriptive you are about how you feel and what you yearn for. I think that you are a very talented writer and you have the ability to make your readers feel how you want them to feel. Like I said before... This is an Amazing peice of work!
 
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