Now I can’t even look at you
When I look in your eyes
You make me want to cry
Make me want to die
It’s not that I’m shy
I just wish you were my guy
Instead I’m stuck searching the sky
For a guy to fly on by
But that won’t happen. Why?
Because my life is a lie
I’m a guy who likes guys
There I said it—Surprise
Now do you despise?
Or are you more wise
I live a life of sighs

Can’t you see?

Disappointment here
Failure there
Rejection everywhere
Got so many friends
Don’t give one of them a chance
To make me feel better
You’re even my friend
But how messed up is that
Can’t even look at a friend
Because all I feel is passion
You see what I wish I could see
I wish I could see you in one way
Not the way that I do
I wish I could like you
Not love you
But no, I can’t control that
You know that for fact
Now I see you with her
Your eyes brighten up in ways
That I wish they did around me
They twinkle like droplets of the moon
Your smile contagious
Filling all with joy

Except me

Your smile brings me pain
I can’t play this game
I’ve lost but still hold on
Hold on to what isn’t mine
Letting my emotions take over
Irrational thoughts
I feel subliminally attached,
And totally dependent
Yet I can’t shake this
I can’t stop loving you
No matter how hard I try
I can’t even look at you
I can’t look you in the eye