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Mixed Feelings

April 15, 2013
By MusicChick SILVER, Perry, Utah
MusicChick SILVER, Perry, Utah
8 articles 1 photo 19 comments

Favorite Quote:
Live in the music, for the music, and with the music.
Life is a song, don't try to live with out the Melodies


Did I do the right thing?
Do you hate me now?
I walk through the halls,
My head keeps spinning
You stare me down
It’s like,
It’s like,
It’s like your looking right through me!
Either that or
Or
Or you’re looking right into my soul!
I don’t know which is worse! I try to stay strong
I stare right back
But it doesn’t fool you
No! No you see straight through it.
I look down
Eye contact is killing me
Times slows down as you look at me
The butterfly’s stuck in my stomach,
They won’t stop moving
You bump me hard in the shoulder.
And it breaks my heart.
I know I’ve hurt you too.
But please explain to me!
What was I supposed to do?
What did you expect?
Did you think I would ignore it?
No, no I couldn’t do that!
Just please don’t hate me!
I’m as sorry as a fallen leaf.
And so worried the music doesn’t skip a beat
Tell me where did I go wrong?
Is this entirely my fault?
Or is there a little blame to share?
Your look is like a stab.
You’re as intense as a night,
Black and dark.
Please try to understand!
I had so many reasons.
And I know you did to!
Just… try not to hate me!


The author's comments:
A guy i know really well threatened to commit suicide so this is my thoughts coming through art

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on Dec. 27 2013 at 9:44 pm
AlaskaGirl GOLD, Klawock, Alaska
11 articles 4 photos 147 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Screw the shining armor. I will take my man in dirty camo any day"

I love it!!!! I could totally relate! I also love how you phrased it :) Great job  

on Dec. 23 2013 at 6:51 pm
MusicChick SILVER, Perry, Utah
8 articles 1 photo 19 comments

Favorite Quote:
Live in the music, for the music, and with the music.
Life is a song, don't try to live with out the Melodies

I wish I could... but I'm not sure how or when I would do that... or if I did find a way to get it to him, if he would even care...  I guess my biggest fear though, is that I've made myself vulnerable to him before, and everytime I do, he makes me regret it. Poetry is one of those things that come from the deepest part of me, I post it on here, because no one knows who I really am so it's more okay, I never show my work to my family or friends though, let alone people who hate me... But i do wish I could make a movie moment out of this. and Have everything work out perfectly(:

on Dec. 10 2013 at 11:16 am
Firefaerie SILVER, Austin, Texas
6 articles 0 photos 29 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Do not pity the dead. pity the living, and above all, those who live without love" - J.K Rowling
"There's always another secret" -Brandon Sanderson

Doesn't just have to happen in movies, I've come across quite a few movie moments in my life... U don't gotta do this, but I think you should show this to him...

on May. 27 2013 at 11:31 am
MusicChick SILVER, Perry, Utah
8 articles 1 photo 19 comments

Favorite Quote:
Live in the music, for the music, and with the music.
Life is a song, don't try to live with out the Melodies

Thanks for the comment fire lover(: Yea it'd be nice if he'd read it and realize how I feel about things, but that kinda stuff only happens in movies so... I'm screwed(:

on May. 6 2013 at 4:06 pm
Firefaerie SILVER, Austin, Texas
6 articles 0 photos 29 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Do not pity the dead. pity the living, and above all, those who live without love" - J.K Rowling
"There's always another secret" -Brandon Sanderson

i amazed. the way you write really makes me feel like im the person talking. if only he would read it i think it would make a difference