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Why I Can't Let People In

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Now I am to begin
On why people can’t come it
On why I don’t let people know me
On why people can’t see the real me
On why I’m alone in this world
On how I’m a boy, not a girl
But all of this is locked inside
All of this, I have to hide

I’m not a door to open
You can’t just show up and walk in
You have to earn my trust
Something that’s… just….
Well, practically impossible
Usually improbable
I don’t let feelings win
I don’t let people in

And really what’s worse
I’m afraid of being hurt
By anyone I do let inside
And so I have to hide
Every part of me
That you may want to see
Because I’m afraid of pain
Not physical, but in my brain

No, not really in my brain
That’s not where one locates pain
The pain I fear is in my heart
A pain that I know you cannot part
And I fear it so I shut myself tight
I cry a little every night
Because I have no one
And I need someone

But I don’t let anyone in



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RynnTopia said...
Apr. 16, 2013 at 5:07 pm
Well, this is great. I don't say that often, either. Keep writing about it...maybe it will help. Peace~
 
KatsK This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. said...
Mar. 29, 2013 at 5:49 pm
This is really good. I'm sorry that you feel like you have to hide your feelings, though.
 
RarelyJadedThis teenager is a 'regular' and has contributed a lot of work, comments and/or forum posts, and has received many votes and high ratings over a long period of time. This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. said...
Mar. 28, 2013 at 11:20 pm
I want to comment so bad but I can't :(
 
RarelyJadedThis teenager is a 'regular' and has contributed a lot of work, comments and/or forum posts, and has received many votes and high ratings over a long period of time. This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. replied...
Mar. 28, 2013 at 11:21 pm
Hey! Wow, that's weird. I haven't been able to comment for the past hour cuz I reached some sort of limit......... Anyways, author I love this poem. It makes me jus want to give you a big hug, cuz I'm the exact same way :)
 
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