August the 17th was your birthday

The day of your first breath,

The day when your eyes first opened to this world

Happiness was found after the anticipation of 9 months had ceased

16 years in this world, you were as bright as the sunlight burning at dusk

July the 17th wasn't really a special day

All was quiet and still

Everything seemed peaceful, finally.

Tyler, my boyfriend, called me that night and we talked for hours.

You used to call him "that boy", and asked about him the last time I saw you

I soon found out that during that phone call,






You took




Your



Last

Breath.


Upon waking up at 2:30 in the morning, I found distress and chaos.


"We've lost her, lost her. Lost. Her. Her? But n-no."

police lights reflected off of the water.

A dive team rushed to recover you,

but you were trapped underneath that mechanical beast.

I wanted to lay in a corner and wallow in my misery,

Never face the cruelness of this world again.

The funeral was a warm day, the wind still blew.

The birds still chirped, People still smiled and laughed.

Unaware of the tragedy that had just taken place

I wanted to yell:

"Has no one told you she's not breathing!?"


I signed your casket with words I never said.

As I stare down at the neatly arranged flowers on your grave,

A longing takes over the





Hole




Left



In


My

Heart.

August 17th came around again, one month after you left.

But it wasn't the same.

This year we celebrated





Your




Day



Without


You.

but as I stand here at your grave, I understand that life still goes on.

the days get better, and I've found my smile again,

along with a laugh I thought I had lost.

I learned that it's okay to smile again

These memories dance in my head, licking at the tears that now







Stream





From



My


Eyes

Onto a single crimson rose that I had laid on your headstone

looking up just a second to let the sun bathe my face

Understanding, now, that I'm still here to leave my legacy,







As you have






So




Beautifully



Left

Yours.