The true me

You see me every day and you think that you know me but you don't. You always see me all smiles and I act like I don't have a care in the world but I do. This is all just a front that I have been acting. Sometimes I'm mad at you or sad but I only show it when it's on paper. I know that you don't like me that way so I keep inside for you to never see. I'm afraid that I'm going to lose you and never get you back. I have lost to many people acting like myself but I have found out what pleases then. Don't feel sorry for me I'm the one who keeps putting me through this and I need you to be there and say it's ok if you act different