The same ones again and again,
Most of them my mind abstained,
Some have slipped over the wall,
These flashbacks i have make me fall.
Sometimes i cry but mostly ignore,
I cannot take this anymore.
To deal with the pain i self harm,
Watching the blood slide down my arm,
My fate is sealed with no way out,
The only way i have no doubt.

In honesty that is not the way,
My friend no longer will stand at bay,
I must trust she will wait,
Until i learn it is not my fate,
I tell her everything secretes and all,
But sometimes i still feel so small.
Between me and everyone is a wall.

My life is now starting to turn,
Slowly i am starting to learn.
Despite me wanting to repeat,
Most of the time i do not cheat.
I'm learning there are other ways to cope,
Even when it feels like there is no hope.