Ask me to explain this pain
I don't know the answer
People describe some as attention seekers
Some just might be
But that just isn't me

See if you never felt this,
You wouldn't understand
How the pain on the outside releases the pain within
How you silently scream
Let no one know
Always say this will be the last time,
I'm sure

I get depressed
Sometimes I don't know why
Some days it's a person
Maybe my past
That drives me to this distructive act that knows me so well

I often tell myself no
I really try
Even with a knife in my hand
I manage to lay it to rest once again

You can bite nails 'til you bleed
Scratch skin
Cut
There
It's releaved

But only for a while
Then you become ashamed
You cry
Break down
Wonder why it keeps coming back to the core

This pain built up inside
It wants out
You feel all alone
So much to say
Yet nothing comes

See if you never felt this,
You wouldn't understand
How the pain on the outside releases the pain within
How you silently scream
Let no one know
Always say this will be the last time,
I'm sure