I thought about the first time I saw you today
How I was just a timid scared child
I thought about the last time I saw you today
How I didn’t say anything I wanted to

I thought about the first time I looked into your eyes today
How I thought at first they were blue
I thought about the last time I looked into your eyes today
How I realized they’re actually brown but just as beautiful

I thought about the first time I hugged you today
How it was spontaneous and joyful
I thought about the last time I hugged you today
How I wanted it to be so much longer

I thought about the first time I sat on the railing today
How I fantasized about you kissing me there
I thought about the last time I sat on the railing today
How I realized I did it because I still hoped you would

I thought about the first time I was accused of crushing on you today
How I laughed and lied and blushed
I thought about the first time I was accused of crushing on you today
How I laughed and lied again but with pain

I thought about the first time I saw you with her today
How I tried to be happy for you when I could see you loved her
I thought about the last time I saw you with her today
How I saw my face in the window and saw the jealousy I tried to hide