No Return

I gave up everything to be here.
Do you understand that?
Do you understand?
I gave up my family,
to be here beside you.
I gave up my friends,
so you would call me yours.
I gave up my values
for you to kiss me like that.
I don't know who I am anymore,
if I find myself again, will you still love me?
We were always meant to be,
but now that I'm lying here,
hands tracing the contours of your chest,
I cant remember who I used to be.
Nothing belongs to me anymore,
everything I own has your name written all over it.
I don't listen to the music I used to love,
because it's all your music now.
I hate you for changing me,
for leading me astray,
but god damn I just love you so much.
An infatuation laced with hate.
I raise the bottle to my shaking lips,
the cigarette,
the weed.
All because your lips have changed me there,
and there is no going back.
One addiction leads to another,
are you proud to be my first?