i never really relized how i always end up in pain. fixing others problems and throwing mine away. happiness feels vacant. the want just a tease , nothing more to live for, no one left to please , sometimes i wish it was over , sometimes i wish i was dead , but then i wake up from dreaming , and i'm lying in my bed. the day hurts as the kids scream , my head is like soft crystal my eyes like thin glass. After a while the others think it dosen't seem to matter, but eventually i will have to stop and scream.. and my body will shatter.