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When I'm Not Myself

What do you want from me?
What do you need from me?
Is there something
I can do
to make myself better
in your eyes

I look for your eyes
trying to find peace
but you
recoil
from them
like you are too
afraid to look

I find myself
looking for you
but you aren't there
it's almost like
you are
avoiding
the thought of me

What do you want from me?
What do you need from me?
Is there something
I can do
to make myself better
in your eyes

I'm becoming more
unlike myself
just for you
but you don't notice
you are too
fascinated
with her

I try to be like
her
but I can't
do it
she is too different
from me

What do you want from me?
What do you need from me?
Is there something
I can do
to make myself better
in your eyes

Sometimes I wonder
why you even like
me
if it is her
the one you talk to
willingly
where you go to
for advice

I'm trying to be
myself
but it isn't
enough
I can tell
it isn't enough

What do you want from me?
What do you need from me?
Is there something
I can do
to make myself better
in your eyes

I like you
I love you
what is the
difference
if you don't notice
since you are too
captivated with
her
to realize

I try to please
you
I try my hardest
but it just isn't
enough
for you
since the one you like
isn't me

What do you want from me?
What do you need from me?
Is there something
I can do
to make myself better
in your eyes

Just tell me
what you want
what you need
and I will
understand
even if it hurts
I just want to know
why you evade
me
and make me seem
insignificant
if you say
I'm the one
you like



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Soleil said...
Nov. 28, 2011 at 4:33 pm
This is amazing! The message is very clear and real. Keep writing, Mel. Write everyday, that's how you get better. Good job!
 
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