Knowing you don't exist

I wanted you no matter what
No matter my age, or the timing.
You were already everything to me.
Now, I know we weren’t meant to be.
You sit in heaven waiting, waiting.
For the right mommy.
God didn’t want us to meet,
That’s okay.
Maybe we’ll meet someday.
But, for now.
I’ll think of what could have been.
You’ll be with me someday.
You’re my baby.