Neverending

I can't get over you, it's been years
And I find myself going in circles
it feels like drowning,
in my own confusions

the things I can't let go of
are the things I never had
and that scares me,
more than my average nightmares
because at least I know that they're not real
at least I can wake up and start to feel

with this there is nothing
but the need to want
and the want to need
that I hold on to
without trying to