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Eating Disorder

September 28, 2011
By Anonymous

I used to wonder why I did this
But now I understand,
Because of all the pressure,
I knew not how to stand.

When my parents fought unendlessly,
I did not eat.
It was my attention seeking love that ended
My inner child with defeat.

When my friends left me out,
I did not eat.
Once I was better, they would soon be begging
To again be around me.

When my grades soon started slipping,
I did not eat.
Looks are good, but brains are more. If I cant be smart,
I must be drop dead beautiful.

When those boys played me,
I did not eat.
Although I didn’t want them back,
I just needed them to see-
There could have been more to the
Outside of me.

I used to wonder why I did this
But now I understand,
Because of all the pressure,
I knew not how to stand.


The author's comments:
Something I struggled with, and once I put pen to paper I realized the causes and reasons of my disorder.

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on Oct. 14 2011 at 9:45 pm
Love.Hate.Passion., Spring Valley, Illinois
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Favorite Quote:
~Hope. Faith. Love~
~Be proud of who you are.You are all unique in a different way.~
~I WILL NOT fade into oblivion , and become less than
a distant memory.~

I applaud you for writing something so deep and meaningful to you in such a beautiful and poetic way. I wish you are doing well and fighting off your eating disorder.Also , thank you for posting this , it makes me so proud that people like you can write about such difficult experiences so that others may get help and not feel like they are struggling alone. Great work :)

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