Beautiful Pain

Squid ink hair on
Burnt sugar skin
The
screaming stretch from
Neuron to
Neuron
Interrupted by

Mucus thick thought clotting
In my brain
I am torn
Halfway through
Decision and
Biological

Need
Living in
The
space
Between
Heartbeats
Turn after turn
Brings me back to
The
same conclusion

Everything becomes so
Beautiful in the
Throes of
Debilitating pain
Which is why

Soaking in the
Terrifically

hot bath water
With saline cracked lips

I Think of you