i watch as the pedal falls knowing it only ends in pain and sorrow. i feel the devil's fingernail scratch inside me, tearing free of the abyss to stretch forth his darkening hand. engulf me! for i give in. i am done pretending, running, hiding. i give myself over to you, willingly let go of all that is mine. take me from this place. i need no more than your promised action. now!noW!nOW!NOW! do it now before i loose me nerve before those i love can sway me. i pray you do it now! fast or slow, peaceful or terrifying. i beg of you! i beg of you! take me out of this world and into the next......