Insane

my body is shaking
under all the pain
im going crazy
but not fully insane

laughing and smiling
like everythings okay
when reality is
i want you to pay

you broke my heart
over and over again
no matter what i did
i could never win

sticky red tears
run down my cheek
cursed in my mouth
unable to speak

but now i am free
and i will speak my mind
you are a hidden treasure
that no one wants to find

i will take you away
alone by yourself
that way i know for sure
you wont hurt anybody else

i will be the beauty
the very best
then i will destroy you
in the ultimate test

that is my wish
of you and me
if you dont seek what i seek
then leave me be

im tired of crying
had enough of your act
i want you out of my mind
and i want my life back

my body is shaking
from the coldness of the rain
im not just going crazy
i think im mentally insane